it is so different
I am such an outsider
That's me when not with these people
11.23.2000I remember,a few years back,
when life was simple,
and problem free.
I had friends,
and a group,
I had hobbies,
and childlish ways too.
But now I am,
all grown up,
thought not to my full potential.
I have grown,
through these rough years.
But now I've grown
and I dyed my hair too.
I've got longer nails,
and jewelry too.
I gave up school,
and gave up my hobbies.
I gave up home,
as I gave up me.
So look at me now,
what have I got?
But baggy pants, and graffity stuff.
Could it be,
that life has been,
a little too rough on me?
Yes, it's true, I'm not innocent,
I've done what you can think of.
But did I really choose this fate,
or has God been unfair?
I believe that this is it,
there is no more to give.
All I have is a broken heart,
and a mind full of lives.
Goes the time
Each moment faster
Goes my life
Staring, for the
clock to stop
You always say
Don't make me wait
Says the clock
In my heart
In the bosom of my own homeIn the silence of my empty home
Teardrops fall, with no echo
salty flumes were barely shone
and we all move, with no shadow
In the stillness of my own home
There is no presence, but I, alone
the air is chilling, to the bone
and in my bed, I pray for home
In the bosom of my own home
you are missing, from this room
the scent is feint, but your cologne
lingers while you've gone to roam
For in my bosom is my home
and in my home, I alone
sit, and wait, for you to come
home, to me, my only one.
Love's Strong HoldBetween my trips to dreams, to hopes;
and fleeting bouts of blinding light,
I sometimes fail to watch my thoughts
an' 'fore I know they turn...to you.
The light escapes my every grip,
she shines and dims to show she can,
but when I tire an' you invade my mind...
the light! comes back to see you shine.
With you walks light; the flaky muse,
she thinks my mind should be abused...
by love; that lie romantists coin
for lust that tempts as evil toils.
My mind is mine, and mine alone,
my thoughts of you are freedom's will;
not for once may you think else'
or risk the light for dark, I will.
For you, the light will never win,
against the ice that has me cold;
immune to life's truths an' pains
that often root from love not gained.
A disease--! from which we all could die,
a serpent's spell that lulls the child;
until it ends and in its hold:
we choke; swallowed by love's strong hold.
Ver's still here.Chosen a path of self-righteousness, no one can hurt me; I'm too quick to quess. Strangers hear my nightly ululation and reason: it must be due to the lonely season. She must feel desolate without pack or kin, after all she's merely an omega with no path to cling. She must regret her decision for isolation, pray that it isn't too late to learn humility and defer--shall we accept her if she does? Let her swallow her pride first.
They don't know why I choose to perambulate, why I ignore posits to obeisance. I am not dogmatic by nature, this mask from birth exists to deceive, who I am from everyone but me. Until the day my legs grow weak, my claws warn of their erosion; and before me appears the bridge of crossing. Or the day nature seizes to guide me and a wholeness can be reached; for there my soul will await me and together we'll live for an eternity.
Neopets: Adopt a Painted Pet?Well, as mentioned before I'm currently doing requests for TNO (The Neopian Orphanage) so that means that I'm also fostering pound pets and looking for new owners! So I wondered if all you neopets players would be interested in any of my current fosters x3
I have up for adoption:
~ Sizilenko the Fire Aisha
~ TigerLithe the Orange Kougra
~ Grundanter the Split Grundo
~ xxMakuganuxx the Maraquan Mynci (+ petpet Khonsu)
~ Skifano the Tyrannian Skeith
~ Stryed the Orange Gelert
~ x_Ruoki_x the Fire Kau
~ xx_Fluffyzara_xx the Mutant Korbat
~ kkk72neo the Tyrannian Elephante
~ Lrose the Robot Grundo
~ Infonat the Robot Grundo
If you're interested, send me a note! xD
Comish!I fear school. I fear those essays I have _not_ written and most of all I fear returning to school with this guilty conscience.
So what did I do about this all? I started a mini-shop on Gaia online! >D
Hence why there will be a lot of headshots, pencil drawings and sketches.
...And that is all.
Wish me luck @.@
Wow, it's been a while...Well, I haven't really been drawing much; I managed to upload a few scraps but then I remembered that I actually have more of them scattered between school notes and such. I have some chibi drawings that I want to color at some point (human, this time o_o) and I actually do have some 'real' sketches that I did for art class, but I can't be bothered to scan them xP
I'll be needing a new ID pic and a submission for a Kyo Fanart contest (FB) for this LJ community I'm in. ^^'
...Come to think of it, there are a lot of characters I want to draw. I'm finally giving up on my illusions and sketching my characters on paper. I'm tired of knowing characters in my head and not seeing their face. I realized while drawing Naka that if I don't sit down and draw draft after draft I'll never draw him. Only be practicing and drawing more can I find the perfect 'look' for him. xD
I'll be out of the country for a month or so starting next week, but before that I'll try to scan some of those old sketches.
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Custom Maid 3D 2 to MMD Tutorial♥ How to extract cm3d2 models with bones, physics, expressions just like 3d Custom Girl ◕ ‿‿ ◕
I did this tutorial with the help of :icondego4ever2getter: ♥
♥ Step 1 ♥ download this dll (i'm not the owner):
♥ Step 2 ♥ go to your KISS folder(game folder) and put the .dll file in UnityInjector
Youtube channelJust created a youtube channel, will upload some videos and little tutorials... feel free to check it out:
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Art Feature Hello Friends,
It's been a long time since I have featured your fabulous art, so here it is
Hope you enjoy them as much as I do!
Uncontainable necromancer by StarsColdNight Grandma was delicious... by lauraypablo (Commission) Bounty Hunter - Sparrow by fhelalr Still by Softyrider62 The Raven - Edgar Allan Poe by Black-B-o-x
Morrigan by Julianez Dreaming from Peace by eerilyfair Demonstration of love by kevron2001 Contact! by CharllieeArts Direlord by Drury-Lane A new dawn by Rui-Abel Magic Dream 06 by caddman Midsummerwish by Euselia Don Quijote by Renata-s-art Rose of Cairo by Lotta-Lotos Haunting by mshellee
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I draw Fanart, OC's, different themes and fandoms.
Art examples (or just look in my gallery):
Headshot: $15 per character
Halfbody: $20-25 per character
Fullbody: $35-40 per character
+ background: depends on the difficulty and details, feel free to ask.
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how to be an artistLearned lots today about being an artist. Sometimes you have this voice or demon inside your mind... like an anti-muse. It plays a tape recorder telling you that you suck and your art sucks and your comic sucks and your story sucks. As artists: writers, singers, painters, drawers, crafters, sculptors, etc, we all fight it from time to time. I had a bad bout with it tonight. All week really, despite how productive I was, I felt miserable and hated everything from the sketchdump to the new comic pages to the sketches.
You should redo it, the voice says.
No. STFU I am an artist and I don't stop. I don't let fear control me.
It'll come back to tell you how everyone hates you and your art. How the studies and practice are going to fail. Your art school failed you. You failed you. You'll fail the internship too.
But as I learned from some friends today. This thing fears your success, because then it is worthless and failed. It is you or it. I frankly don't want to, so I keep drawing. Tired o
February Monthly Theme - WINTER MAGIC:iconlove-new-artists:
Here are our members contributions to our monthly theme. They are indeed very magical, however, a warning, you will need to wear some warm clothes before going any further
Winter White (2) by Lumimyrskydawn
Snow Cone by Loffy0 Fine veil II by IsabellaJainePhoto
It Actually Snows In Texas by Shyll-j
Snow by Alena1950 I miss You by Angie-AgnieszkaB
Frosted bubbles for your birthday Gigi50 by marijeberting
One Piece - Belated Birthday Blizzard by Book-Nose
BIRTHDAY WISHES AND GIFTS
My heartfelt thank you for all your kind Birthday wishes, it has moves me so very much! My Birthday has been a wonderful one on DA and I am very grateful, you are awesome!
Thank you also for the so very beautiful gifts I have received, deviations, points, etc.
The purpose of this journal is to feature my birthday gifts. In the next journal - hopefully before the Holidays - I will make a huge feature, trying to thank as many people as I can.